Today is the day!

I am pretty sure that I have mentioned before that my sis and bro-in-law were adopting a little girl from Guatemala. When they started the process, Noelle was 2 or 3 mo. old I believe. On Dec. 6 Noelle turned 1 and as of yesterday she is in the country and officially a member of the family!!!! ***Squee!!!***

They didn't get home until late last night so today I will finally get to meet (and get my hands on) that precious little girl. Noelle is the first grandchild for my parents and my sister's mom and stepdad so as you can imagine everyone is just over the moon.

Watching her go through her first year through pictures was hard, but it was also wonderful. I am just so happy that she is finally here and that my sister and brother-in-law can finally stop worrying and will be much less stressed.

They are having a small birthday party for her on Sunday with the immediate family. We don't want her to be completely overwhelmed. My sister's birthday was on Wed. so she got the best birthday present ever! And, we are all getting a very special Christmas present this year!

Family Traditions

Most families have their own traditions as far as the holidays go. My family is no exception to this, hence the title of this post. With Thanksgiving coming up I was thinking about what I am most thankful for - and that is my family. My dad's side of the family is quite large. I am the youngest of 13 grandchildren, from the 6 children of my grandparents (who each came from families of 13 kids each). Before I was born Thanksgiving was always held at my grandparent's house. It was a chance for everyone to catch up and all of the cousins to get to play together. But, by the time I came along, all of the individual families had started doing their own dinners on thanksgiving (I am the youngest by 10 years).

In 2004 my cousin Jeff had a wonderful idea to start having a big family meal again. It was planned that the Sunday before Thanksgiving we would have an early Thanksgiving for the whole family to get together. Our new tradition was that we would make a main course as our great grandmother would have. We each bring a dish, but cook something (this year it was chicken pot pie) in kettles over an open fire outside. We have made chicken corn soup, apple butter, and the traditional turkey. It has been so great for all of the family to get to pitch in and spend the day together. This is what I am thankful for. It is also great that the great grandchildren and the great-great grandchildren have an opportunity to get to know one another as some of them live a few hours away.

My grandfather just had his 90th birthday in September and God willing we will have him for years to come, but it is wonderful to see his joy at having the whole family together. Here is the family photo from this year (minus about 18 people):



This represents my dad and his brothers and sisters and their families. This gives you an idea of how large our family is. The extended family is huge! I'm constantly finding out about more cousins ;0). So, I hope everyone has a safe and happy Thanksgiving! Eat lots of turkey, spend time with loved ones, and then take a nap! :0)

Just where have you been young lady?

Well, let me explain. I still don't have internet access at home. I've been meaning to get a card for my laptop, but have yet to actually do it. I'm not home much, so there didn't seem to be a good reason to spend the money. And, I've been cut back to part time at work, so I don't have much time to spend on here. That's my story and I'm sticking to it ;0).

So, as far as what has been happening in the last two months, I'll fill you in. I am pretty settled in my new digs...even though I want to strangle my roommate sometimes. It bothers me that even though she is home most of the day...she doesn't do anything. We have had a box of cleaning supplies and other things that she took out of the cabinets under the sink for the purpose of scrubbing the inside of the cabinet....that was a month and a half ago, and the box is still in the kitchen. I would do it, but it's the principle of it...you started it, you finish it.

Work has been extremely lacking for us, and I've been laid off for a few weeks...not to worry though, everything has been ok. I sold my Mazda and got what I wanted for it, so I had some extra cash after paying off the loan...bonus! I've been able to collect UC benefits, and had hoped that things would pick up, but I've started scouting for jobs.

It is funny that while with Tony I was quite the home body and that when I left I became quite the social butterfly so to speak. There is a little bar that I was in quite a bit with my dad when I was younger where I like to go and shoot pool. I used to be pretty good...and I still am ;0). I reconnected with people that I hadn't seen in years and made some new friends. I have been dating someone special too. He approached me one night to shoot a game of pool...and I beat him. OK, no big deal...right? Yeah, no. He wanted a rematch. I won again. Then he won. I think you know where this is going....I don't know how many games we actually played, but I know I won more games. So he decided he would call me Shark ;0). Every time I'd see him that is what my nickname was. So, he asked me out, we had a great time, and are still having a great time.

That is about everything in a nutshell. I'm doing well. I have lost a bunch of weight though because of stress and not eating, but honestly it's kind of nice because I'm back down to what I weighed in school. I will try to get a picture up in flickr, but I don't know when that will be. I will also try to get around and catch up on everyone as soon as I can. And, just in case I don't before the holiday....Happy Thanksgiving to everybody!

Changes

Change is something that I think is difficult (to some degree) for everyone. I have always struggled with change. I am a creature of habit and/or routine, if you will. The bigger the change, the harder it is for me to adjust. As you all know, I've had quite a bit of big changes going on in a short period of time. That is part of the reason that I haven't been around much lately. I needed some time to take stock of the situation and deal with it.

Most of my stuff is finally out of Tony's house, so that is good I guess. My new roomie and I haven't killed each other yet, so that is also good. I'm finally starting to get settled. I really really really miss my dog, which as you have probably guessed is one of the hardest things for me to deal with right now. I miss Tony too, but we talk often so that is nice. I'm thankful that we are able to be friends.

As of right now, I don't have internet access at home, and I don't know when I might get it. We live in the boonies so I either have to pay a small fortune for a card for my laptop, or settle for dial up. I really don't want dial up. So, the only time I have to check in is at work and I've been crazy busy lately. So, don't think that I've completely disappeared...I'm still reading, I just don't have time to comment like I would like to.

So, all in all I'm not doing so bad. It could be worse and it could be better. I'm just taking everything one day at a time. It always amazes me how things work out. It may not seem like it at the moment, but I am sure that something good will come out of all of this. It better! ;0)

Bring on the waterworks

As of today, most of my worldly possessions have been packed into boxes and moved to my new place. I still have a little bit left to pack, but the majority is out. I had a much more difficult time dealing with it than I had thought I would. Saturday I was fine, because I was still "coming home" that night. Sunday was a whole other story. I pretty much cried the whole day. I was glad that Tony and Lora were helping me to pack stuff up, because I really don't know how much luck I would've had doing it alone.

When it came time to leave to take our load over to Lora's place...I completely lost my shit. Saying goodbye to Buddy was a disaster. Watching Tony leave from Lora's was even worse. I know things always get worse before they get better, but that doesn't make me feel any better at this moment.

My parents are bringing my furniture today, so at least I'll be able to sleep on a bed tonight as opposed to the couch, so that's good. I am extremely hopeful that I will be able to bring Buddy over at some point, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up. I just don't know how he's going to do with another dog and a kitty. The last thing I want is to stress the animals.

So, it looks like I will be unpacking until Christmas, but I guess that is the norm when you move. I am trying to be as strong as possible, but not very successful thus far......*thinking happy thoughts*

I hate moving

I seriously think that moving should be considered a form of torture. I have not yet actually started moving and barely have anything packed, but I'm fed up already. How can one person really have this much shit? I'm talking non necessary stuff that isn't junk that basically just takes up space. Anyone who has had to move knows exactly what I'm talking about.

I'm going to be moving in with a friend of mine. I figure splitting the bills is a good thing...as long as I don't kill her. She and I have been friends for about 16 years and I love her dearly, but she can get on my nerves. I'm sure that I get on her nerves sometimes too, but I'm much more laid back than she is.

Buddy will probably be staying with Tony...at least for a while. L has a golden retriever and I don't know how well Buddy will do with George. George is a sweet boy and loves everyone, but Buddy is very protective and jealous when it comes to me, so we will have to test the waters a bit before I decide weather he will be able to come with me (I hope so).

I've been going out quite a bit lately and shooting pool to get out of the house. I used to be pretty good so I am getting better now that I've been shooting. The bar that I frequent is my parents' old haunt and the owner jokes that now that they've moved that I'm taking dad's place. The only thing is I don't drink nearly the amount of beer that he does...usually ;0)

So, wish me luck trying to get motivated to pack...I'm going to need it. I hope to get some things moved this weekend, but we shall see how that works out.

Parents

Don't get me wrong, I love my parents more than anything. But, they are not really helping me keep my composure right now. My mom called my crying the other morning because she felt bad that they just moved 2.5 hours away. I assured her that everything was fine and that it was perhaps a good thing for me to work out by myself. My dad on the other hand has me stressed out because I just know that at some point he'll have a few too many Miller Lites and want to call and harass Tony. Well, it's possible anyway. Tony is usually smart enough not to answer the phone.

So, not only am I stressing and being mopey, but throw two caring parents into the mix who are trying to help in there own way and we have ourselves a mess. Or I do should I say. But it too shall pass.

My boss's rental that I told you about....not a chance I'm staying there. I know my boss is trying to help me out, but it is just a tiny little.....shack? That might not be the right word, but lets just say it's not in the best condition....not horrible (maybe I'm being a bit snotty) but it's certainly not great. I've been looking through the paper for apartments and I've come to the conclusion that I may just have to leave Buddy behind. I obviously don't want to, but there are many places that don't allow big dogs and I don't know how fair it would be to force him from a big house into a small apartment. I don't want him to be uncomfortable and not have enough space. So, we shall see what happens there. I know that Tony would take excellent care of him for me, so that's not an issue.

I have a job interview tonight for an evening position, part time. So, I should finish getting ready. I will let you know how I make out ;0)

Almost

Well, I know that I posted that Tony and I were trying to work on things, BUT at this time I'm afraid it's in vain. We have decided that it would be best for me to move out. I have gotten an offer from my boss to rent out his old house. This works out because he is fine with me having Buddy. See, I told you I have uncanny luck. While I am definitely heartbroken, as is Tony, our main goal is to preserve the friendship. We hope that this may bring us back together one day, but I am honestly not getting my hopes up as I don't want to get let down.

I haven't really finalized anything with my boss yet and I don't know when this may occur, but I am kind of relieved that everything is out in the open. So, I just wanted to let you know what was happening. I am going to try to keep posting, but we shall see.

In other news, the weekend was fantastic (except for the moving thing). The cancer benefit was awesome.....it was very hot out but everyone had a great time. After the benefit, I went home, showered and went to a local club to see another band play....totally awesome!!! I made some new friends and got to hear some great music.

I will be sure to let you know what's happening, but for now I need to go sit somewhere quiet.....

Thanking my lucky stars

I must have done something good in a previous life or have really good karma. As far as the good karma goes, I always TRY to be nice to people and be a decent human being. That all being said, I feel like I am an extremely lucky girl. Yes, I've been going through some rough patches but that's life. I always find a way to deal or things just fall into place....see, the luck thing. I'm not bragging by any means, I'm just very grateful.

This morning when I went out to leave for work, I got in the tracker, turned the key and....clicking. I turned the key off and tried again...it tried to start then more clicking. OK, must be the battery. So, I gather my stuff and get in my Mazda (which just ran out of inspection in July) and head off to work. I was a bit late but my boss was not mad (it was only 5 min. or so). He had gone to a little restaurant close by and gotten us both breakfast so that was nice...see what I'm saying. So, we were eating our breakfast and I explain my car troubles to him and he agrees that it is probably the battery. Now we continue discussing where would be a good place for me to check for a new battery and out of nowhere he tells me to call the local battery store and check if they have it....and he'll put it on his American Express! Can you believe it? I didn't know what to say....lucky?

Long story short, he drove to my house and took out my old battery, took it to the battery place and bought me a brand new battery. I am still stunned by his generosity and kindness. My boss has always treated me as a daughter. We get on each others nerves, but hey thats par for the course. So, as I was saying, I don't know what I did to deserve it but I am ever so thankful!

I honestly don't know if luck is the right term to use but it seems fitting. If it's not because I am a good person, then I must come off as pitiful and in need of help ;0). Case in point: I was driving down the road a few years ago and my tire started to go flat. I pulled over (there was no service station nearby) and I put on my flashers and proceeded to change the tire. Now, I am fully capable of changing a tire...hell, I can change my own oil among other things concerning a vehicle. I am semi mechanically inclined. I had two people pull over to help me...one of which was a nice old man who probably would've had a harder time breaking the lug nuts loose than me. He so very sweetly said "I felt bad for you, you poor thing..." I just smiled and thanked him, as by this time the other man had shooed me out of the way and was going to town on the tire. So see...pitiful=Missy ;0).

So, now that the battery issue is taken care of (THANK YOU ED!!!!!!!!) I am ready to start the weekend. Tomorrow I will be going to a cancer benefit and it will be awesome (always is). Live music, lots of good food, lots of cold beer, and really great people. Not to mention that 100% of the proceeds goes to the three beneficiaries this year. How awesome is that? Saturday night my girlfriend and I will be going to see a friends band play, so it should be a great day all around. That means that I will sleep all of Sunday...maybe ;0p.

So, have a great weekend and don't do anything I wouldn't do....

You stink!

No...not you. I would never say such a thing. Buddy stinks. I seriously think my dog has intestinal issues because the amount of gas that he produces is ridiculous. Now before you run away...this post is not all about my stinky dog, so bear with me...I just thought this was funny.

This morning I was in the bathroom getting ready for work as usual. Buddy was laying in his normal spot by the tub munching on his breakfast. You see Buddy is quite social and prefers to eat with company so I kill two birds with one stone and just bring his bowl into the bathroom with us. So, he was eating and I was brushing my teeth.....and all of a sudden he farts...loudly. Talk about clearing a room...I mean come on. This went on all morning. By the time I left for work my house smelled horrible.

Anyhoo, what I really wanted to post about was my plans for this evening. My friend Jen's birthday is today and she and her hubby are having a BBQ tonight to celebrate. I'm pretty excited because I love an excuse to have a party. I bought her a cute pair of shoes and a pair of earrings and I baked her a birthday cake. As far as I know I am spending the night at her house because I don't have a designated driver. I probably won't drink much anyway after last weekend, but better safe than sorry.

Saturday I am hoping for nice weather so I can go swimming. I would really like to go to the creek and swim, but noone will go with me. Everyone always votes for the pool...oh well. I will hopefully remember my camera and will get some pictures to post. I hope everyone has a great weekend!!

Live and learn

Ok, where do I start? So much has happened since I last posted. Tony and I have been trying to work things out and things have been alright. Not perfect or horrible...but they are OK, so we will see what the future holds. At least we aren't in "I want to kill you" mode anymore ;0).

My parents finally found a house and we got them all moved this past weekend. While I am extremely happy for them I can't help but feel a bit selfish due to the fact that they now live three hours away. But, I will deal with it. Their house is really lovely and they have a spectacular view (they are up on a mountain) so as soon as I get time, I will upload the pictures.

The moving convoy consisted of my sister, brother in law, my uncle, my cousin, three of my dad's friends, my parents, and of course myself. We drove up to the new house on Saturday and got the U-haul unloaded. My uncle, cousin, and one of the buddies were driving back home and the rest of us were spending the night and returning on Sunday. After they left to go home the real fun began as it was time to start drinking.

Let me just say that I am normally not a big drinker. And I usually just stick to beer when I do drink. For some reason I lost all ability to make good decisions at that point. It was probably the campfire that we had going that did it ;0).... yeah, that's it, the fire. Long story short I drank mass quantities of beer (I have no idea exactly how much), some Baileys Irish cream (not much), and 3/4 of a bottle of wine. Yeah...I know. Strangely enough I was not as drunk as you may suspect as I was talking fine and I remember everything...but I was a bit stumble-y if you know what I mean.

When I woke up the next morning I actually didn't feel too bad...until I drank a cup of coffee. Lets just say that I was formally introduced to the new bathrooms quite well. I was so sick all day and had to make the three hour trip home....lesson learned.

I am now officially joke fodder because of this incident, but I think it's funny just the same. Did I happen to mention that all that alcohol was consumed by a 103lb woman? No....well no wonder I was sick ;0) My family is so proud I'm sure.

So, hopefully I will be back to posting more often...hopefully ;0) I've got some catching up to do, so here I go...

My heart hurts

Just so everyone doesn't think that I've up and disappeared, I figured I'd better post SOMETHING. Well, I wish I had something happy or funny or warm and fuzzy...but I don't.
Tony and I have been having some issues that have actually been going on for a long time, but we are super good at ignoring them (kinda). So, the other night I suggested that we talk about some things because we weren't fighting about them and it just seemed like a good time.

I won't ramble on with the contents of the whole conversation, but I will summarize for you what we learned from our little chat...bullet style:

• Neither one of us is really feelin' the love right now
• We each go our own separate ways in our spare time
• We are the best of friends...and want to keep it that way
• I would like to get married and start a family...some time kind of soon
• Tony doesn't know if he wants to get married and have kiddos...ever
• Tony's priority in life at this moment is work (his job and his rental properties)
• I tend to have an attitude quite a lot because I'm not happy and I take it out on Tony
• Like, major 'tude
• We aren't really sure where we see ourselves in five years
• Lastly, we don't know if things are going to work out, but we don't want to end up hating each other and would rather just be friends if nothing else.

So, I guess you could say that (in a nutshell) Tony has quite a bit on his plate (that he didn't have before) and I have had to become second banana. This turn of events has caused me a great deal of hurt so I lash out.

The hardest part is that we really do love each other very much and don't want to turn our backs on each other. I think this might be a little harder on me because if we would decide to end our relationship I would have to move...and I don't deal well with big changes. Also, try finding somewhere to rent with a big dog like Buddy. I would be absolutely crushed to have to make that kind of transition without my dog at least.

As of right now everything is up in the air. We've talked (a really good talk) and we are just trying to figure things out. So, I my posting is more sporadic than usual this is why.

Monday, Monday

I really want to thank you guys for cheering me up with your kind words regarding the last post. It really helped, so THANK YOU!!! I found a way to make myself feel better about the dinner situation. I told Tony that if he didn't like the menu, by all means cook your own. He said that's fine with him and I asked what we were having for dinner tonight and he informed me that I have to make my own...I just laughed at him. That's fine with me, but just wait till I tell him he has to shop for his own food ;0p. He hates the grocery store. He may think he can be more stubborn, but he has underestimated my intelligence on this.

As far as my grandpa...Well, my Mom and I went to visit him on Saturday. The new place that he is in is HUGE. It took us 30-40 minutes to get there from my house, so it wasn't too bad. It took us a while to find his room...there are just so many wings and hallways. So, when we finally found the right room, he had just come back from having lunch.

I noticed right away how sad he looked. I am sure that the change was hard for him as it would be for anyone, but I think he is uneasy. Saturday was his fourth day in there and the only place that he had gone was the dining room, which is just across the hall from his room. He is afraid to leave his room because he doesn't think he could find his way back. He also gets very winded, so for him to get all the way to the elevator is really draining for him.

I hope that once he gets a bit more settled he will do better. He has a nice roommate so maybe they will pal around together...I hope so!

I hope everyone had a great weekend! What did everyone do for Father's Day? Did anyone do anything exciting, or was it just relaxing?

I'm overwhelmed

I feel like I have been chasing my tail lately. I can't seem to get anything done and I just feel anxious. I have noticed that within the last six years or so that I have developed an emotional issue that is sometimes very hard to deal with.

I have said before that I tend to be emotional, but not in an extreme sense. Chalk it up to being a very soft hearted person I guess. But when too many things happen in a short amount of time, I tend to lock down, get mopey, avoid people, and just generally keep to myself. I was never that way when I was younger ;0(. Anyway, I haven't been myself lately and I'm feeling a bit...lost, shall we say.

My dear grandfather has been in assisted living since last July and it has not agreed with him. He gets quite depressed and has had some health problems as I have written about before. On Wednesday he was moved to a full care nursing home. This is definitely in his best interest but there is no getting around the fact that his health is not getting any better. So, that has been upsetting, but I had been doing OK with the help of the family.

Also, Tony and I haven't spoken to each other all week and have been avoiding all contact (we are so mature). We rarely fight about anything so usually when there is an argument or one of us gets mad about something we ignore each other for a few hours then things are fine and we talk. Only this time I'm not willing to shrug everything off. Let me first say that I can take constructive criticism. I can also handle offhanded snide comments....from other people. But when a comment was made by Tony that was at best a mean jab really really hurt my feelings. The issue at hand was what we were having for dinner (beef cubes, rice, and carrots) and when we started eating I noticed he wasn't eating the beef and asked why. He could've very easily (and nicely) said that he didn't like it but instead he informed me that it tasted "like shit". He could've handled it better is all I'm saying.

So, this is why I have been hiding. I should be fine in a few days, so sorry for being such a drag. Is it me or does it seem like everyone has been posting less often? Must be the nice weather. ;0) Also, happy early Fathers' Day to any Dads out there!

Friendship

On July 4, 1996 (I was 17) while on my way home from a friends house I lost control of my car on a sharp corner and crashed into a tree. My face hit the steering wheel because I had some slack in my seatbelt. My mouth was bleeding really bad and my face was starting to swell...but somehow I managed not to break any of my teeth thank goodness!

I bet you are wondering what the hell this has to do with friendship. Well, the accident doesn't have anything to do with it, but what happened AFTER the accident does, so bear with me.

My parents took me to the hospital, because why call an ambulance (this was before everyone had cell phones) when you can call your parents and really freak them out. So, we get into the ER and I am bleeding all over myself. The doctor is checking me out and discovers the reason for all the blood is a tear/hole under my top lip and into my cheek. I know this sounds nasty, but there were no external cuts on my face, this was on the inside. So, they get me all cleaned up and send me home.

I am obviously very sore and shook up after all of this, and I don't remember much after getting home. The next day is kind of blurry too. I'm not sure if one of my friends had called the house or if my mom called my friend Lora. Throughout the rest of the day the phone rang off the hook with my friends calling to check on me which made me feel better. I couldn't talk well as my lip and cheek were swollen, but I made due.

I honestly don't remember if it was that night or the next, but I was laying on the couch and I heard a car coming up our driveway...make that four cars. The gang had showed up to see how I was and cheer me up!!! We (my dad actually) built a fire in the fire ring in the back yard and we all sat around talking. Everyone was trying to make me laugh, but whenever I would try to smile my mouth would bleed.

That is a great memory for me because all my friends were there when I really needed it. It is a shame that over the years and as we all grow up, that sometimes those friendships fade.

"The gang"...that sounds funny...was mostly guys at that time. Four girls and seven guys. They were the friends that would stop what they were doing to help you if you needed it, or would go out and raise hell with you. Those were some good times....wait, the best times.

Most of us have lost touch for the most part. This is the part that makes me sad. I still see three people quite often, but the others...I haven't seen them in years. Why is it that it happens this way? It's curious. It happens to everyone in some capacity, but I really wish sometimes that I could go back, even just for a day, and relive some of the fun that we had. I could write so much more about this but....maybe some other time.

All about Missy

Adam has tagged me once again to answer some questions, so here you go A-bomb ;0)

1. What was I doing 10 years ago? Hmm...Ten years ago I was 18 and graduating High School. It really doesn't seem that long ago, but boy does time fly. I was working at Wawa at the time (I think).

2. What was I doing 1 year ago? 1 year ago we were still trying to get settled into our new house and get some house projects finished. Needless to say we still have a lot to do ;0)

3. Five snacks I enjoy: Mint Chocolate chip ice cream, any kind of fresh fruit, soft pretzels, shrimp pasta salad, pirogies.

4. Five songs to which I know all the lyrics: I am kind of a freak when it comes to song lyrics. I memorize songs very easily. I know all the lyrics to so many songs I don't know where to begin. I have been known to demonstrate my talent for singing along to all the songs on my ipod much to the detriment of whoever is with me at the time ;0p

5. Five things I would do if I were a millionaire: I would pay off all of my/our bills, pay off my parent's/sister's debt, set up college funds for my nieces, I would invest, and of course...I would shop!!!

6. Five Bad Habits: I procrastinate all of the time, I have a mouth (sometimes) that would make a trucker and/or a sailor blush, quick temper, eating late at night, laziness.

7. Five things I like doing: Swimming, playing with the dog, fishing, going to new places to explore, spending time with family.

8. Five things I would never wear again: Oh my lets see...Big hair (the ozone is thanking me), pegged pants, scrunchie socks to match your outfit that were bunched up over said pegged pants, eye patches...When I was little I had to wear patches on my one eye because I had a lazy eye, and the patches were meant to strengthen the weak eye...I hated those things. And last would be any of the crazy colors of eye makeup that I used to love.

9. Five favorite toys: Toys huh? Well, my mp3 players, my computer,....I am really drawing a blank on this one...I guess my Xbox, how about my bathing suit because that means I get to go swimming, and I guess my fishing gear.

Alright, now that everyone sees how awesome I really am (sarcasm) I guess I am supposed to tag some people, but I will leave it open. If you would like to participate please do so and let me know. If you don't want to that's OK too. No one will come after you or anything.

So, on a scale of 1-10 how much of a freak am I? I read over these answers and think to myself ..."Good Lord you are dull" ;0) I hope everyone's Tuesday goes well!

Goals

I have decided to try to make some small changes in my daily routine/life to try to be, for lack of a better word, better. Now, there are actually lots of things that I would like to accomplish, so the list may seem a bit over zealous, but if I can accomplish a few I will be happy. I don't expect to do everything all at once and my list is simply a guideline.

The list:

• Try a new recipe once a week (or once every other week).
• Walk the dog more often or go for longer walks...it's good for both of us.
• Smile at everyone you come in contact with...even if you are having a crappy day...you might cheer someone else up.
• Clean one room/area of the house per day so that by the weekend it's all done and time can be made for fun stuff.
• Be more selfless/less selfish.
• Actually use my sewing machine instead of watching it collect dust.
• Learn Spanish (again)...I had 4 years of Spanish in school but would like to brush up and learn Latin American Spanish
• Take a dance class
• Take Buddy to obedience training (this is probably a lost cause, but it would be funny)
• Be less hard on myself for my flaws and just keep trying to improve
• Be less lazy ;0p
• Go to bed a little earlier and get up a little earlier so I don't have to rush in the morning.

Well, I'm sure that I could come up with some more, but I think this is enough to start with. Anyone have any tips or advice for any of these things? How about any goals or accomplishments that you want to achieve? I may be a bit optimistic with my list, but as I said it is just a guideline for me to try.

I hope everyone has a great weekend! It is supposed to be overcast with possible rain all weekend, but we need rain. So, maybe I will dust off the sewing machine...;0) Happy Friday!

It's Summer!

Well hello there! How was everyone's holiday? Good? I hope so! I ate mass quantities of cheeseburgers, grilled chicken, grilled pork chops, and rice and beans. I also got to go swimming which was really awesome because I LOVE to swim.

Tony's sister had the cookout at her house and she has a big in-ground pool. There was one guy...you probably know the one...who felt the need to throw people into the pool. It was funny the first few times, but got old pretty quick. I was already in the pool so, I was in the clear.

I did manage to get a little bit of color so instead of being casper white, I have moved into "slightly pasty" territory. Slowly but surely people. I am not one to bake myself in the sun (anymore) due to the fact that I am pretty fair complected and have a higher risk for skin cancer. My dad has skin cancer (he's a redhead) so I am careful about checking myself. But, I do like to be out in the sun and once I get a bit of color I tan pretty well for as pale as I am.

Anyway, I hope everyone had a great weekend. I must get back to work now ;0( Have a happy Wednesday!

Finally Friday

I am so glad that this weekend is a long weekend because after this week, I need a break! My boss was in the hospital from Monday thru Thursday, so today is his first day back. That means that I was running the show (I do anyway, so that doesn't really mean anything). But, it has been more hectic than usual so I am going to go home tonight and relax.

Actually, I will be going to watch a softball game, then I will go home and drink a beer. Yes, that sounds good. Saturday we will be going to a cookout and watching the UFC fight between Chuck Liddell and "Rampage" Jackson. I can't wait to see that fight! I totally hope Chuck wins.

Anyone have any big plans for the Memorial Day holiday? I don't think we do, but I never know what's going on ;0p. I will be sure though to think about our troops (past and present).

I hope everyone has a safe and happy holiday weekend. I hope to be tanner and more relaxed come Tuesday!

Love is in the air

With all the lovey dovey-ness that comes with a wedding, I thought it would be a great time to post about how I met my other half. In August we will have been together for five years. Holy shit...that's kinda weird saying that ;0). Anyway...where was I? Oh, right...well our "story" is actually kind of corny, but it turned out well.

I had just started working for my current boss when I first met Tony. He had come into the store to talk to my boss about some flooring (Tony owns rental properties) . I immediately thought that he was pretty darn cute, but I was not single at the time. There were a few more times when he would come in looking for Ed, and if he wasn't here Tony would stop and chat for a few minutes. Nothing major, just friendly conversation. We were both with other people at the time so it didn't matter anyway.

Jump ahead two years....I had been laid off for a year and had just come back to work. I was sitting at my desk when the bell for the front door rang as someone came into the showroom. I got up and (this next part is 100% the truth) I thought to myself "maybe it's that cute contractor Tony"...I opened the door to go out into the showroom......and you guessed it, it was Tony. He smiled at me and asked where I had been. He extended his hand to shake my hand but for some crazy reason I hugged him (not that he minded).

At this time we were both single and he would come by fairly often "to talk to Ed" but everyone kind of saw right through that ;0). I kept waiting for him to ask me out but he never did. I thought maybe I was reading him wrong but it seemed like he liked me.

On one of his trips he had ridden his motorcycle (he had his helmet in his hand) so I asked him about it. I ride trail bikes and quads so I was interested. I told him he would have to take me for a ride on the bike sometime, figuring that I would know weather he was really interested or not. He immediately asked me "...how about tonight?". So, he gave me directions to his house and we went for a ride on the bike and he surprised me by taking me for dinner.

He let it slip at dinner that he probably would've never asked me out had I not initiated it because he felt shy...I really think that is sweet and funny now. But, the rest is history and we've been together ever since.

I also found out later that he had kept an envelope that I had written his name on (a bill for some carpet I think) just because I wrote it. Hey, I told you it was kind of corny.

Softball, twister, marriage, drinking, dancing...

Well, this weekend was quite an adventure. So much was happening that I couldn't possibly fit it into one post without boring everyone half to death. So, I am simply going to focus on the wedding and reception since that was the most interesting part of the weekend.

• I was inadvertently a half hour early to the church because I obviously cannot read.
• The ceremony was beautiful...I don't think you need any more detail....most weddings are the same ;0)
• The bride's dress was HUGE...or should I say the skirt of her dress was huge...she could've easily smuggled the bridal party under that thing (but it was really pretty)
• Open bar at the reception!!
• I did not manage to find a date to go with me (Where the hell were you Adam...did you make a wrong turn at Ohio? ;0p)
• The bride's father kissed me at least four times (The bride and I have been friends since 7th grade so he has seen me grow up)
• I wore a fancy dress and HIGH heels...and forgot my camera.
• I managed not to break an ankle or make a fool of myself in said heels
• Three children took it upon themselves to look up my dress.
• I danced for four hours in heels after drinking and still did pretty good.

So, needless to say the bridal party was totally hammered and were quite amusing on the dance floor as the night progressed. I actually didn't drink that much as I was driving. I am still pissed at myself for forgetting the camera but the bride said she would make sure I got some pictures. So, how was everyone else's weekend? I hope it was nice. Anything exciting happen?

Weekend here I come!

Boy am I glad that it is Friday! The week just seemed to drag on. I am going to be busy this weekend, but in a good way. Tonight we will be babysitting our niece so that should be fun. I am sure it will be a night of cartoons, twister, and "Missy, can we bake something?". She love to help me bake ;0p.

Also, my best friend from High School is getting married on Saturday so I am really excited for her! I hope I don' t cry too much though. I do have one small problem though...I don't have a date :0( Tony backed out at the last minute (last night) so, I have to go alone. Anyone wanna go? Open bar!!!!!!!! OK, anyway I even bought a new dress and high heels, but he wasn't swayed. I am hoping that the reception will be crazy. Knowing her family as I do, I am sure it will be ;0).

I am sure that the reception shenanigans will be good blog material come Monday, so be on the lookout for tales of drunk dancing and possible falling down in new high heels while dancing/drinking.

Sunday will probably serve as recuperation day. So, I hope everyone has a great weekend. Wish me luck in the heels. Seriously, anyone not doing anything on Saturday? NO? Oh well ;0p.

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!

I'm thankful

I was looking at what I have been posting lately, and it got me thinking. Quite a few of the posts are about things that are going wrong or just unpleasant things that I have been going through. There is absolutely nothing wrong with writing about those things and writing them out is cathartic and makes me feel better. That being said, it has been a while since I have written about something happy.

As is true for many, for every one bad thing in life there are so many more good things. Even just the little things. So I decided to cheer up by writing about what I am thankful for in my life. I will even spare my usual long-windedness and use bullets ;0). Your welcome!

So, I am thankful for the following things:

• For a wonderful family who would do anything for each other, no matter what.
• Good health.
• The fact that I do have a job, even if it isn't wonderful and doesn't pay me enough ;0)
• A roof over my head...even if it is a never ending construction nightmare.
• Good memories...even when the house (my parents' house) is sold, I will still have the memories to look back on.
• A loving partner (Tony) who excepts me for who I am, and what I am/am not.
• My dogs...enough said ;0)

I try my best to see the bright side to everything, but sometimes it's hard. There are many more things that I am thankful for, but I don't want anyone falling asleep on me ;0)

So, I hope everyone is easing into the week without any problem! It is supposed to be warm and sunny here today, so that is good. Hopefully Buddy and I will take a long walk when I get home from work, that will be nice. Only three days till Friday!

I must be selfish

A while back, I had written a post regarding the fact that my parents wanted to sell their house. I have also previously written about what a complete and utter sap I am. These two things in combination do not make me a happy camper right now.

My parents have found a buyer for their house. The house that I grew up in and have so many memories in (not that they don't). Even saying those things makes me feel like a whiny 12 year old. In all fairness, it is their house and they can do whatever they want with it, but that doesn't mean that I have to like it.

My parents built the house in....1989 or 1990 (I think) on property they bought from my grandmother. The 2.5 acres bordered the property that my grandmother's house was on and was part of the original property where my mom was born. I guess that is another reason why I can't see why they want to sell. They worked their tails off to clear the land to build (it was heavily wooded) the house by hand. I remember helping stack wood.

Being that mom and dad are getting older, they want to eliminate their debt and move upstate where the property is cheaper. I understand that, but I am really upset that they want to move AWAY. Why not buy something that is still close. They have a granddaughter coming at the end of summer, and they want to move.

I don't do well with change sometimes....can ya tell. It is hard for me to deal with major changes, especially anything involving anything emotional. It is a weakness of mine. For example, when my grandmother went into a nursing home and her house/property was auctioned it was sold to an amish neighbor who tore her house down and rebuilt on the site. I couldn't go up the driveway (you had to pass her house to go up our driveway) without getting upset.

So, the point of all this is that yes, I am upset about all this. But, I feel really selfish for feeling that way. I am happy for them, considering that this is what they want to do though. Any thoughts? I just needed to get that off my chest, so sorry for the long post ;0).

I don't wanna grow up....

As I have previously mentioned, I have been hunting for a new job. I am currently an office manager for a retail flooring company. I handle all of the bookkeeping, payroll, scheduling, some sales, answering the phone, and whatever else comes up.

Each time I look in the paper or search jobs online, I have no problem finding accounting jobs or customer service jobs, but nothing very interesting. Do you know what I mean? They are all pretty much the same, except for the industries, but the accounting isn't that different.

So, seeing all of these positions has me thinking about what I would REALLY like to be doing. I went to Penn State University for a year and majored in Agriculture Science..just shut up...but college just wasn't my thing at the time. I would love to take some online courses, but I don't have the slightest idea what I would like to study. My problem is that I would love to study 10 different things, but that doesn't really make much sense now does it? No, didn't think so.

I actually keep coming back to nursing, but I am just unsure. I would also like to be able to travel a bit (even if just locally) and/or work from home, but I just don't know what I want to pursue.

So, what made you guys want to do what you do? Or, did it just kind of happen (that was me)? Do you enjoy your job/career? And, did you feel this frustrated when you were deciding which path to take? Wow, that a lot of questions ;0) Happy Thursday!

Oh the pain...

This weekend brought the following things:

• sunburn
• 2 flowerbeds full of flowers and mulch
• clean laundry/house
• achy muscles where I didn't know I had muscles
• a twisted ankle
• a gash/bruise on my shin
• oyster stew
• A picnic with my family
• ice cream

Now, doesn't that sound like a busy weekend? I figured it was easier just to do bullets than to try to write all that stuff out. I am sure that you can devise that the sunburn and achy muscles are from planting the flowers. I also managed to clean the house and do some laundry that I hung out on the line so it smells wonderful. The ankle/shin injuries are courtesy of my beloved Buddy. We had gone outside for a potty break (for him, not me) and were coming up to the back porch. There is a step up, and I didn't have his leash tight and he was excited to go in, thus pulling me forward and catching me off guard. I twisted my ankle and in trying to catch myself I slammed my shin into the porch...OUCH! It is purple and bloody and swollen, but I sat there and laughed because there was nothing else I could do.

Now, the picnic. My parents, my sister, brother-in-law, and myself went over to my grandfather's "home" and took oyster stew and sandwiches and had a picnic in the pavilion by the creek. It was nice to sit in the sun, and I think he really enjoyed the company. Tony's mom brought ice cream over later and we sat on the porch and enjoyed the new flowers.

I had a pretty satisfying weekend, how about you? Did you do anything fun or interesting?

I've been tagged

Adam was playing a game of Chinese Freeze Tag and invited me to play. The rules are that I must write 10 interesting/strange things about myself or habits that I have. Once I have come up with my 10 things, it is my turn to tag 10 other people to do the same. There are no tag-backs, so if someone has already done this they are "safe" ;0). So, without further ado...

1. I was born 10 weeks early and weighed 2lbs, 7oz.
2. I used to shoot professional fireworks, like you see on the 4th of July...yes, the big ones. Some of the racks that I lugged around weighed more than me.
3. I was a cheerleader in high school and although I was very small (4'10" and 90lbs) most of the time in our formations I was a base because I was one of the strongest girls.
4. I can belch louder than most people I know. My dad insisted I demonstrate my "skills" at the bar one night and everyone bought me a drink.
5. As you can see by #4, I am very much a tomboy. I have moments of sheer girlishness, and then we have belching contests...my dad says that those things make me comical ;0p
6. I have a hearty thirst for knowledge. I only went to college (Penn State) for one year, but I love to learn new things. I am always game to have someone teach me a new skill or to learn about something that I may have never heard of before.
7. I collect frogs. My collection actually started from me mentioning to someone that I thought a particular frog item was cute, and it stuck. People have been buying me froggie things ever since.
   
8. There isn't much that I don't like as far as music. I have very eclectic tastes I guess. On my ipod I have everyone from Breaking Benjamin, The Kinks, John Lee Hooker, Rascall Flats, Pink Floyd, The Ramones, Metallica, and so on. I think you get the point. (Sorry, I am too lazy to link them)
9. Considering that I like many different type of music, I go in phases as far as what I listen to primarily. When I was in high school I was on a country kick, and went line dancing three times a week. Line dancing is also really good cardio!
10. I would've never guessed that I would have a blog. I do not write well, and I have a short attention span, so I really didn't think I would like it...I was wrong ;0).

Well folks, there you have it. I seriously hope no one lapsed into a coma or anything. Also, I hope that I haven't weirded anyone out or scared anyone away. Now, I guess I need to pick some people to tag...I don't have 10 people who haven't been tagged so I will tap:

Rockdog
Blublood
Angela
Heather
Melly
Laundry Broad
Mama Jen

That is all I have, so if there is anyone who would like to do it, let us know so we can read your list.

Well Hello there ;0)

Wow, it seems like such a long time since I was inclined to write anything. Well, I have sort of been in a funk lately, so that is what I am going to blame it on. We all have those times where things just don't go as we would hope or we just feel a little off. I have been experiencing both, so bear with me.

I mentioned that I was job hunting didn't I? Yes, I did. Well, I interviewed with two companies. The one that I was hoping for...didn't get the position. The other...I was offered a position, but they want me to take a pay cut. So, no luck yet. Oh, but my boss put me back on full time, so that is pretty awesome!

On Monday, Tony and I went to Lowe's to buy some garden lights for our flowerbeds. The lights were on sale and we had a coupon, so that was a good thing ;0). We ended up out in the garden section looking at flowers. Little did we know that we were about to witness an incredible lack of cashiering skills.

We get into line to pay for our things, so far so good. We get up to the cashier, a very cheery lady who is smiling like there is no tomorrow. So, she proceeds to scan our items (only 4) and totals our bill...$101.70 was the damage, so Tony gave her $102.00 in CASH. Smiley counts the money twice before trying to enter the amount into the computer. She types in 102 and hits cash, which if anyone has worked a cash register before...it registered $1.02. Let me just cut to the chase and tell you that she typed it that way AT LEAST five times. She could not figure out what was going on. Then we tried to help her by saying that she needed to type the point, and so on. So, she finally got it and her excuse....are you ready for this? She apologized (still smiling though) and said that she wasn't used to working in the evenings, that her normal schedule was in the morning.....WHAT?

Let me just say this...I didn't know that cash registers changed depending on what shift you work. Oh, they don't. OK, good it isn't just me then. ;-) Even though she was having some trouble, I will give her credit for being bright and cheerful. Most times they look disinterested at best.

I hope everyone is having a good week so far! Hopefully I can get back into the swing of things STAT. At least it's all downhill from here...come on Friday!! ;0)

Spring? Is that you?

Let me just say how happy I am that it was nice out this weekend. I mean seriously, I am so fed up with the cold. I spent the entire weekend outside, and it was fantastic! I pulled weeds out of my flower beds and turned the dirt so they are ready to go when I buy some plants. I also made a new flower bed around a tree in my back yard. The tree is really the remains of a tree, but is too high (in my opinion) to be considered a stump. I will have to take a pic and you can decide.

Sunday after church I went to visit my grandfather. He was feeling pretty spunky and was sitting outside enjoying the sun. After leaving pappy, I went home and sat out on my porch and watched the birds and squirrels. So, it was a pretty lazy day.

When Tony came home on Sunday he was digging in front of our shed, basically just messing around and found an underground "space" beside our garage. It looks as though it was supposed to be a housing for a propane tank and an access to the water line. I will be sure to get a picture of that as well.

So, how was everyone else's weekends? Relaxing I hope!

***side note: I just wanted to let everyone know that sometimes I am slow at reading the comments, but I will do my best to respond because you guys are the best!! So, please don't think I'm being snobby...just pokey ;0)

What a way to start the day!

When my alarm clock went off this morning I was pissed as usual...how dare it want to wake me out of a good sound sleep...bastard. So, I get my lazy butt out of bed, which means I had to pull my legs out from underneath Buddy to do so. I stumbled to the coffee pot and fixed myself a cup of joe. OK, so none of this is really exciting and is par for the course most mornings. BUT, when I went to get a shower this morning I took Buddy into the bathroom with me. This is not abnormal as he doesn't like to eat by himself, so I kill two birds with one stone and bring his bowl in while I am getting ready. He eats and is done by the time I am so it all works out. So, I got in the shower and Buddy was on the rug in front of the tub as usual. I begin washing my hair and I feel a draft. I rinse my face and open my eyes and there is a furry brown head poking in through the curtain trying to drink the shower water. I laugh at him and ignore it (he likes to drink from the spigot). By the time I get to conditioner, he's still watching me. I don't know about anyone else, but I don't particularly like being watched in the shower, even if it is just the dog.

I continue to try to ignore him when all of a sudden, he decides it would be a fabulous idea to join me in the shower. That's right, he just hopped in the shower like that was exactly what he was supposed to do. I am standing there laughing, wet, and soapy, wondering what the hell I am going to do with a soaked dog who, as soon as he gets out and shakes off is going to cover my bathroom in wet dog fur...GAH! He is so lucky I like him ;0)

So, needless to say I had to clean my bathroom, dry my dog, wash the shower out, and then I was able to get dressed and ready for work. Amazingly I was only two minutes late. I'd say that's an interesting way to start out, don't you? How do you start your day out...cool and calm, or calamity and chaos (feeling dramatic today, can you tell? ;0))

I hope everyone has a good Thursday! How do you like the pink? Too much?

If not for bad luck I would have none at all

You know I really hate being such a drag, but I don't have a good thing to write. Not one thing. I have been having nothing but shitty luck. I've been fighting mild depression. I totally suck guys, I'm sorry.

I mentioned before that I had been cut back to part time at work. Well, I am finally at a point where I HAVE to look for something else. I have been at my job for 6 years and I have a great boss (most of the time) who treats me like a daughter. I am sickened at the fact that he will have no idea what to do if I go elsewhere. He has no computer knowledge at all and barely gets his own work done. The way the economy is right now there is just no business.

I had a job interview yesterday for a part time position and was involved in a minor car accident. Everyone is fine...I have no damage to my car, but the other driver has some scratches, so that means I have to pull my $500 deductible out of my ass, as I have no money right now.

The one nice thing that I can think of is that I took my grandfather a fresh salad, apple caramel crumb cake, and apple cider for dinner tonight and he smiled at me like I was the best person in the world, that was nice. ;0)

It is never fun to start over in anything, weather it be work, relationships, or home. Don't get me wrong I am discouraged, disappointed, and frustrated, but in light of the Virginia Tech shootings I should hold my tongue and be thankful that none of my family or friends were killed in the tragedy. My thoughts and prayers are with all those who were touched by this horrible event.

Here is to hoping for better days!!

28 and holding

Well, 28 years ago today, my poor mother was in the hospital having an impatient child removed from her tummy! That's right today is my birthday ;0) I was born 6 or 7 weeks early, I am not sure exactly. Mom teases me that I was in a big hurry to be on with it. I weighed in at a whopping 2lbs 7oz...I know what big baby huh.

My mom called me this morning at 8:10 (time I was born apparently) and sang to me, so that was a funny way to start off. I have no idea what we will be doing tonight, but hopefully I won't have to cook ;0)

One more day till Friday...yay for that. I hope everyone has a great day! I am going to try to.

Bunnies and Candy and Eggs and Ham and...oh yeah Jesus

I am so freakin glad that it is Friday! This was a week that I just could not wait to be over with. It is of course Good Friday, which means that...duh Sunday is Easter. I know, I am so bright sometimes. Anyway, speaking of the Easter Bunny...I wanna know why that bastard doesn't bring me a basket...I deserve chocolate and jelly beans just as much as the kids do ;0). Just kidding...kinda.

My Easter weekend will be busy, but not as bad as usual, so that is good. Either tonight or tomorrow I will be making peanut butter eggs for Easter favors for the adults...yummy. I will be making a small basket for Tony, just because if I were to make one for all the nieces and nephews, I would be broke. Sunday, I will be going to the sunrise service at church where we get to light candles...should be very nice. We will be having lunch at my parents' house and we will be taking my grandfather (as long as he feels up to it) and then dinner at Tony's parents' house. So, I should be a fat cow by Sunday evening.

I hope everyone has a great weekend and a Happy Easter. May the Easter Bunny bring you lots of goodies, but no rabbit poop ;0)...Hippity Hoppity Easter's on it's way...

Something good needs to happen

Things just have not been too peachy in Missyland lately. My grandfather's trip to the hospital was the start of two crappy weeks. I don't remember if I mentioned it (and I'm too lazy to look) but the doctors finally let Pap come home. He is doing well and is happy to be out of the hospital. Here is a list of the other shit that has been going on recently:

• My hours at work got cut back, which means I am part-time now.
• I have been unsuccessful in finding a part-time job to make up what I lost at my current job.
• My niece turned five (not bad...just made me feel old)
• One of my very close friend's brother committed suicide...he was only 30
• Work has been bad due to some people's attitudes.
• The newbie left and we hired another newbie, so I have to train him.
• I have so much housework to do I could scream.

As you can see, things have been less than great, so I would really like for something nice to happen. I don't think I can take much more negativity. So, I hope everyone's week is going well so far! Happy Wednesday ;0)

Questions...answered

The following questions were given to me by Underachieving Mommy in response to my request to be interviewed.

If you would like to play along:

The Rules: Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me.” I respond by asking you five personal questions (I will leave these questions for you in my comments) so I can get to know you better. If I already know you well, expect the questions may be a little more intimate! You WILL update your journal/bloggy thing/whatever with the answers to the questions (please don't leave your answers in my comments unless you don't have a blog). You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Here are my questions:

1. You are given the choice between:
a)Having one question--i.e. What is the origin of life?--of your choice answered with absolute certainty.
b)Receiving a briefcase with One Million Dollars.
Knowledge or Money?

Well, I would love to say that I would take knowledge...but I would probably take the money. I honestly think that sometimes ignorance is bliss, and sometimes knowledge can be a burden. So, I'll take B. It would be nice to pay off all of my debts and have some fun money.

2. What characteristics(of others) do you absolutely despise?

I would have to say dishonesty, being hypocritical, and acting as though you are better than someone else.

3. What did you dream of becoming when you were a child?

When I was a little girl, I dreamed of being a nurse when I grew up. I had a strong urge to want to help people. Later I decided I wanted to be an Archaeologist because I loved digging in the dirt and finding those awesome artifacts was very interesting. 20+ years later I sit behind a desk...go figure. ;0)

4. If you were were told tomorrow you had to choose between the following:

a)You only have one year left to live.
b)You can live for 50 more years in good health if you totally abandon all family and friends--no email, no phone, no visits, nada. Assume you could start a new life in a location of your choice.
Which would you choose and how would you live out the remainder of your days?

Hard question. I assume that the one year option was healthy and happy. I think I would choose A. My family is very close and if I had to live fifty years without them, it wouldn't matter where I was, it would suck. I would live my last year to the fullest. I would at least know how long I had, and would be able to do what I wanted before the end.

Doing better

First of all I would like to say thank you for all the kind words and thoughts regarding my grandfather! He was moved from intensive care to a regular room yesterday, and will probably be able to come home in a few days. The doctors have stabilized his blood pressure, which is really the only thing that can be done at this point. He is doing well, but anything could happen at any time unfortunately. He is ready to go home and get ready to go fishing (his words) ;0)

So, at least we are half way to Friday, which is always a good thing! Happy Hump Day everyone!!

Not a good weekend

I'm sorry but this is probably going to be a long post...FYI

Friday afternoon I am driving home from work. I have already made my pit stop at the bank to deposit my paycheck, so I am free to go home and start the weekend. I had a few things planned...hang out with my cousin, go to a little party at my girlfriend's house, and just generally be kinda lazy ;0)

Unfortunately, my weekend didn't go as planned. As a matter of fact it came to a screeching halt when my cell phone rang on my way home.

*Phone rings*

Me: "Hello"

Mom: " Hi Honey"

Me: "Hey mom, what are you doing?"

Mom: "Honey, Pappy has been taken to the ER, dad and I are here at the hospital"

Me: "WHAT?!?!"

Long conversation short...My grandfather was at the senior center and was having lunch. He began having bad chest pains and the staff thought it was best to call the ambulance. Once they got him to the hospital and ran some tests, the consensus was that he has an aortic aneurysm.

They immediately started him on medication to keep his blood pressure low, so there is as little pressure on the bulge as possible. Due to his age (89) and health the doctors decided that operating to correct it was out of the question.

I spent all day Saturday and Sunday in the hospital with him, along with all the other family members. Sunday when the doctor made his rounds, he gave us more bad news. What Pap had was not actually an aneurysm, but an aortic dissection...which is of course worse than the aneurysm. The treatment is the same, and if his blood pressure is too high the tear will get bigger and eventually will burst open and he will bleed to death.

We are playing a waiting game now, as the doctors have no way of telling us how much time he has left. It could be days, weeks, or months. They just don't know.

My grandfather called me over to him yesterday because he needed a drink and told me that he is looking forward to meeting the Lord and seeing my grandmother again. I am so glad that he is calm and happy. I have been crying and feel very sad, but I also feel calm...it's sort of strange.

He knows what is going on around him and is not disoriented, but he sleeps most of the time which I am thankful for. So, think some happy thoughts for us, and if you pray, your prayers would be much appreciated!

Scared the piss out of em'

Last evening when I was done making dinner and eating (broiled flounder ;0D), I tried to convince Tony to go on a bike ride with me. It was soooo nice out yesterday. Warm and sunny...(yay! Spring is finally here) Unfortunately, when I finally got him into the idea, the sky had darkened and threatened to rain...which it did for the rest of the night off and on.

So, I cleaned up the kitchen and went upstairs to my computer room to play with my best friend Internet ;0p. Tony came strolling in a proceeded to harass and pick at me (I guess he was bored) and it turned into a wrestling match. Let me just tell you that he cheats and tickles me, but if I tickle back enough to win he pouts.

As we were roughhousing, I am laughing and yelling, he's laughing and yelling. Usually this is where Buddy comes in. Buddy is very protective of me. He can't even stand if Tony and I sit really close together...jealous much?. So, normally he would've been all over Tony at this point, but he was nowhere in sight. So, I start yelling for him (for help, of course) and Tony tells me the door to the bedroom is closed, which is where the dog was. We carried on for another 15 min. and then went to go get Bud.

Mind you, Buddy is a pisser...you know the kind...gets all sorts of excited and kind of tinkles. He doesn't do it all of the time, but look out if he actually has to pee. We open the door and he is so worked up from us wrestling without him that he is leaving trails all over the carpet where he is running and jumping around. The more I yelled for him to go downstairs, the more he leaked!! It is during all this that I notice that he has already taken the liberty to piss in the middle of my bedroom floor. He is a big dog guys, with a big bladder...we are not talking a small puddle.

He was so upset because he thought Tony was hurting me that he peed, so I really couldn't yell at him. He wouldn't leave my side the rest of the night and was giving Tony the evil eye. That's my boy! He even got a little snappy at bedtime when Tony tried to get him off the bed...let this be a lesson...Don't mess with mommy ;0p

I hope everyone has a great weekend!! Any big plans?

Thank GOD It's Friday!!!

Lets take a trip down memory lane

I hope that I am safe in assuming that most people went on family vacations/trips when they were young. Well, this time of year always used to get exciting for me because I knew that our annual camping trip would come in August.

Our yearly trip consisted of at least four families, sometimes six or seven depending on who's schedule would allow for it. We were all like one huge family. A very loud, disorderly, somewhat obnoxious, fun loving, big family. All of the adults were long time friends and all of us kids pretty much grew up together. I of course was usually the only girl, not that that mattered, seeing that I acted more like a boy at that age.

We camped at the same campground every year, and always had the same site. Our site was a huge open space by the pool because we needed the room for all of the tents. Think tent village here people ;0). Our trip always coincided with a charity event in the town which was called the "Fanny Float". It sounds funny, but all it really was was mass amounts of people tubing down a section of the Susquehanna river. I think the charity was Muscular Dystrophy or Multiple Sclerosis. You made donations or bought t-shirts and floated down the river.

Floating down the river was always the high point of the trip, and was always on the last day. It took a few hours to do, and everyone would tie their tubes together, so it was basically a big party on the river. People would have coolers strapped to the tubes, filled with beer, or soda and food.

I don't think the event runs anymore which is really a shame. We went for 10 years straight, ever since I was a year old. I never got to enjoy the "adult fun", but had such a blast as a kid playing in the river, camping, roasting marshmallows on the fire, and all that good stuff. The weekend was a big party for the adults.

I couldn't find much online about it to back me up so you guys don't think I'm nuts, but I do have pictures. I will try to get some on tonight. Sorry for the long post, but I really enjoyed remembering those times ;0)

So, what kind of trips/vacations did you take with the family as a kid? If it was somewhere different all the time, did you have a favorite place?

Have a happy Thursday!!

It's quiz time ;0)

Ok, so for lack of anything to write, here are some of those addicting little quizzes that I took. Let us know how/what you scored if you take any of them!

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ESFP)

Your personality type is playful, charming, open minded, and energetic. Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 5% of all men You are Extroverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Your Quirk Factor: 41%

You're a pretty quirky person, but you're just normal enough to hide it. Congratulations - you've fooled other people into thinking you're just like them!

How Quirky Are You?

You've Changed 64% in 10 Years

Compared to who you were ten years ago, you've changed a great deal. In fact, you're probably in a completely different phase of your life - and very happy about it!

How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

What's Your Personality Type?

OK, enough with the fluff...I hope everyone has/had a good Hump Day!!

Back to the old grindstone

Monday's suck! But I am sure that you already know that. I have a funny story to tell you guys. My boss came into my office on Tuesday carrying a bouquet of flowers for me...Awww, I know. He goes to the central market and likes the lady who sells the flowers, so don't read anything into that...he just wanted to flirt with the vendor. So, he walks in with the flowers and says ....are you ready for this? No, I am serious...you sure...Ok..he said:

Boss: "Happy Valentines Day. I know I'm a day early, but these were pretty."

Me: *Blink* "What?"

Boss: *Looks really confused*

Boss: "Isn't tomorrow Valentines Day?"

Me: "Um...No" (It would've been March 14) "You are a month behind" *Laughs hysterically*

Boss: *Laughs* "Boy, I feel dumb"

Me: *not saying a word*

Guys, that was so funny. I could not comprehend the stupidity. So anyway, I had to tell you that.

What did everyone do for St. Patty's Day? I lounged around the house and watched tv. I'm Irish, but had no desire to go out in the snow.

I had an awesome Sunday. Church was better than usual, and afterwards I came home and made a big breakfast. After I was done stuffing myself I went to visit my Pap. I am glad that I went to see him because he was really lonely. He says that no one comes to visit him, but I don't know that for sure, as his memory isn't what it used to be. I took him some goodies to snack on...some apple cinn. muffins, peanut butter crackers, and some sprite.

Pap is in an assisted living home. Understandably, he is upset at this. We had a nice visit. I stayed about 2.5 hours and we watched some tv, looked at some pictures, and chatted. He seemed in better spirits by the time I left, so that made me feel good. He told me that when trout season is in that we will have to go fishing at the creek behind the home. I told him that sounded like a fantastic idea!

I hope everyone has a tolerable Monday!! I didn't want to push it ;0)

Snow Sucks!!

I just can't believe this weather we are having. We have like a foot of snow and it's still coming...it was 70+ degrees here yesterday. This means that tomorrow will be spent shoveling and making hot chocolate.

I finally got my ipod situation figured out. The problem was the file types. It seriously took me 2 seconds to fix once I figured it out...oh well, at least it is fixed now ;0)

In the time that I was in my computer room messing with the ipod and downloading some more music Tony had Buddy in our bedroom ripping some boxes to shreds. Buddy loves to rip boxes apart. I don't know why, but he does. It is funny because he whips his head all around and really gives that box hell. ;0p Unfortunately the cardboard doesn't clean itself up, so I must go clean up the aftermath.

I hope everyone has a great weekend! I will be shoveling ;0)

pffft...new technology

I think I am getting stoopider the older I get. Does anyone else feel that way, or is it just me? I have been messing around trying to fix my ipod for two weeks. I had problems with it skipping songs after I had updated it, so I reset it. Even after I reset it and reloaded my music I am having problems, more so than before. Damn technology.

I could very easily use the Zen Sleek Photo that I have, which was a gift from my very awesome Mom, but in order to play it in the car I have to use one of those little battery operated transmitter things that doesn't even charge the battery = sucks. So, I actually like the Zen better, but I like the dock for the ipod more...are we on the same page now? Good.

So, if anyone has any suggestions, I would appreciate any guidance. Another testament to the decline of my intelligence is the fact that I have had a new laptop for no less than 6 months and it has been rarely used. I honestly didn't know how I was going to transfer all of my music that is on my desktop. My CD-RW drive on that computer won't let me burn CD's, and I really didn't know how else to transfer the files. I think I have a solution now, and I am sure that there is probably a simple way to do it, but I'm retarded. I can configure the network at work, and do things like that, but something relatively simple...come on. ;0)

So, anyway I feel better now that I ranted a little. I hope everyone has a happy hump day! ;0)

Trip to the Lock

Well, I am happy to say that I finally have something to write about! I know, I can't believe it either. I ended up staying home from work on Friday because my cold was kicking my ass. So, Friday was a wash, as I didn't really get out of bed. Saturday I was feeling better and managed to get some laundry done...no fun, but can't go to work in pj's now can I...NO!

Sunday was pretty freakin awesome. We had our niece overnight on Saturday (she's about to turn 5) so Sunday morning we had pillow fights, wrestled, and played twister. She didn't want to leave when it was time. After she left we did some work in the attic, but it was so nice outside for a change that the work got old real fast.

I convinced Tony that it would be nice to go for a drive...I love to do that. I suggested going down to a place called Lock 12, which is near Holtwood Dam. It's only 20 minutes away from our house, but it's a neat place to walk around.

Lock 12 is one of my favorite places to go in the summer. You can hike down to the Susquehanna river (if you are careful of the snakes). Oh, and the chance that the warning sirens from the Dam don't scare the crap out of ya ;0) (not likely to happen, but sounds good)


There is a double Limestone kiln that you can look down into:





If you walk the trail then the next thing you come to is a small bridge over a stream, which is very pretty.





I love water, so I usually end up in the stream playing like a little kid, but it was a bit too cold and very muddy yesterday. Next up is the lock itself, which you can walk inside of. It was really wet and muddy so I didn't take any pictures from inside of it.







I'm sorry that the pictures are not good, but I forgot the camera and had to rely on my camera phone, but at least I have pictures. ;0)



The last one is supposed to be a picture of the Normanwood bridge. I wish I could've gotten some shots up on the bridge, but there is no where to stop. The Susquehanna looks pretty from up there.

I tried to get Tony to go to Lock 15 yesterday too, but he didn't feel like it. So, maybe once it gets nice consistently I will be able to share some good pictures. Hiking and visiting places like these are one of my favorite things to do. I love to be out in the woods!!

So, what did everyone else get into this weekend? I hope that everyone had a good one! Anyone get messed up with daylight savings? Well, being that it is Monday I should go get some work done. So, here's to one day closer to Friday ;0) (I can wish can't I?)

At least it's something :0)

I "borrowed" this from Rockdog. So, at least I posted ;0)

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Medicine head

Well, here we go again. Lets play pass the cold around...tag I'm it. Tony made sure to give me the cold from hell that he's been fighting. Last night I dosed up on Nyquil and vicks due to the fact that I couldn't breath. So, this morning I wake up and feel like I am as high as a kite..yay!

I managed to get to work this morning, but still felt pretty loopy. I took some dayquil for my stuffy head, and either it is a big fat liar that it doesn't make you sleepy, or the Nyquil is STILL kicking my ass.

So, anyway I feel like shit and it is very cold and windy outside today. Work is totally sucking because we have an advertising meeting this afternoon and my boss can't make up his mind what he wants to do. That, and I can't concentrate very well. So, I hope everyone has a decent day today...I am going to go find a corner to nap in ;0).

Time flies

Wow. I seriously can't believe that tomorrow will be the first day of March. Didn't we just have Christmas? Mind you, I am not complaining about spring coming...I am all for that, but it is really amazing how fast time passes.

I am so ready for spring to come so I can get outside and plant some flowers. Although, if I want to be in decent shape by the time it is warm enough to wear shorts, I should really get the lead out if ya know what I mean.

I am lucky enough not to have to suffer through allergy season, as Tony is a snotty, sneezy, itchy, mess, so yay me for that. I get kind of giddy when it starts to warm up. I just love being outside, even if it is just sitting on the porch lounging. I also really like to hang my laundry out to dry...love that smell!

So, here comes March, and before we know it, it will be October...isn't that just the way it works? ;0) Anyone have a favorite spring activity? Or just a favorite thing about spring?

I'm getting tired of this

I had to say goodbye to another family member yesterday. My great-aunt passed away and yesterday was her funeral. It is hard when you get to the age where all of your aunts, uncles, and grandparents are getting up there in years. When I was younger, I remember going to a few services, but this is the third one in less than a year. I love seeing my family members, but not under such circumstances.

The service was lovely and touching. Her grandson made everyone cry when he got up to speak about her, and everything was just as she wanted it. So, after the service, the family had a lunch, so I got to talk to some family, and eat...so that was good.

I didn't have to go to work afterwards, so my parents and I went to my dad's favorite bar. My mom doesn't drink, and I wasn't in the mood to do so, so we decided to shoot pool. My dad is a great shooter, and my mom is pretty good as well.

Mom and I were the only ones shooting for a while, as there weren't many people there to begin with. Surprisingly, I was doing most of the winning. I'm not to bad myself, but I rarely beat my dad. Long story short...we spent most of the day shooting, and as more people came in, some of the guys were trying to be competitive and were putting their quarters up to play....I beat all except one. So, that made me feel pretty good.

So, yesterday was bittersweet, I guess that was the point of this rambling mess. I am totally glad that it is Friday, and I hope everyone had a good weekend!!

I want to leave you with one thing that the preacher said at the service. I have heard it before, and you may have as well, but it is very true.

"The Dash" by Linda Ellis

I Suck...I know

I must admit that I enjoy reading other blogs much more than I like updating my own...I know what a shock! So, I wanted to make an appearance before everyone deserts me ;0)

We had a bastard of a snow storm last week, and I am still sore from shoveling out. Of course, New York had it worse, but I still feel the need to bitch. I had a couple days off due to the weather, but I think I would rather work than shovel. I did get some cleaning done at home, so that was good.

My dog is hilarious in the snow. He has to be leashed to go outside, but he still tries to take off running.....he just drags me behind him. He tries to get us to take him out every five minutes so he can go eat some more snow....what a knucklehead ;0)

I will tell you this story quickly, because I am sure that it is funnier to everyone but me ;0) The other morning, I get up and proceed to get dressed to take Buddy out for his morning constitution....now mind you the snow is hard, so I didn't bother putting on my boots, and opted for slippers...do we see where I am headed with this? So, we get to the door, I open it and Buddy decides that it is a fabulous idea to yank me off the porch, out of my slippers and across the snow to the big pile of snow so he could piss. Now, I am laying on the ground in my pink jammies, bare footed, no gloves, and severely pissed off. I mean, he literally drug me across the snow...the neighbors should consider themselves lucky that my pants didn't get pulled down. So, I had to walk across the snow in my bare feet, to the porch where my slippers were still laying where I had stood the moment before....what a way to start the day off!!

Although I didn't see the humor in it at the time...typing this I was laughing to myself the whole time! Happy Monday (if there is such a thing) ;0)